Have you ever felt so many emotions all at once that you can’t even begin to decipher them? That’s been me recently. I’ve been blessed with a great opportunity and I haven’t taken the time to talk about it to you. Kelli over at AdventuresInChildRearing.com has asked me to join in with her and a few other women in writing for a website known as FrugalMommas.com
Naturally, the emotion I feel about this is excitement but it is quickly followed by a nervous sensation.
Right about the same time that Kelli approached me, my grandfather took a bad fall and broke his back. The feeling here is worry. It didn’t take long for the doctors examining him at the hospital to discover that he also has cancer. The feeling now is sorrow. Stage four. Hurt.
Up until last night I had been compartmentalizing all these emotions, similar to the way Elsa from the movie Frozen would. Conceal, don’t feel.
There’s too much deep hurt.
Too many feelings.
Too many emotions.
I’ve known that it would only be a matter of time before the walls come down and my concealed nature would turn into a sobering pile of mush.
I was in a meeting when I got the phone call about the cancer, not a great time to display emotion.
I was on a date with a girlfriend of mine watching a comedy while the husband’s kept our kids when I found out it was stage four. Not a great time for saddened tears.
You may know from reading some of my other post that finding happiness is a daily struggle for me and I have been doing really well with it recently. I believe that my daily devotions help me focus on looking at the positive in life. Life is joyful and enjoyable but the Bible does clearly say that there is a time for everything. A time to laugh. A time to cry.
Last night was my time to cry.
As my family was preparing my grandfather’s house for him to come home to this new stage of life I was battling so many emotions. I can’t even begin to describe to you everything I felt. Laughter. Stress. Thoughts of happy memories. Sad thoughts of how did we not see this?
It’s interesting at how much you can learn from the generations that go before you. Both my husband and I have been blessed with penny pinching grandparents.
They’ve taught us many things in life.
Use pecans from the trees.
Never buy flowers.
That item has multiple purposes.
Somebody will buy that.
It’s okay to get dirty.
Never talk bad about a man of God.
There’s more to life than what meets the eyes.
You can be finer than a frog’s hair.
Give what you can.
You can find a way.
Life is tough.
It’s worse if you stress.
Having stuff doesn’t make you rich.
I’m learning that things are just things. No matter how much they cost, they are just things. It’s the lives of our family that we should treasure and not the china sets. That is just simply stuff.
Yes, I cried myself to sleep in my husband’s arms last night over the weight of everything that I have learned this week, but before I came home, while I was still standing in my grandfather’s kitchen talking to some of my family members, one of my aunts mentioned to me that I could learn a lot from my grandparents’ frugality. I agree.
I recently saw a stepping stone at Walmart that said “Bloom where God plants you”. I put it in my buggy and walked around the store with it, only to then put it back on the shelf before I left.
That’s something else the generation before me has taught me, it’s okay to put something on a random shelf in the store, people keep their jobs that way.
Anyways, I couldn’t get that gorgeous stepping stone out of my mind and I went back to purchase it about two weeks later. I think that there is just so much weight in the words written on it. “Bloom where God plants you”. You see, God has given us many blessings in life and sometimes you just have to focus on making the best of what you’ve been given. I think that when you do that you’ll discover that living a healthy and frugal life will become the natural thing to do.follow on Facebook for busy mom tips like these